We are all so blessed. Our friends the Woodruffs of Houston have suffered an unspeakable loss in their lives. There is no balance in that loss, though the outpouring of love of their communities reminds us of the blessings that are all around us, regardless of one’s religious beliefs. I believe that God is all around us, reflected in our friendships and connections. Perhaps that provides balance.
Have a relaxing Holiday Weekend Friends,
Cym
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Thanksgiving 2011
Dearest Family & Friends,
In the busyness of life, we often forget the things that truly matter. I am guilty of being all-consumed with school schedules, pickup times, sports and extracurricular activities that -- while centered on my children -- left me ragged at the end of each day. There was literally nothing left of “me” to give to my husband, to God, to myself.
During this time of despair, devastation and loss, I admit I have approached Thanksgiving with a cynical eye. What do I have to be thankful for in this desperate time of trial and unbearable pain, when the recent, tragic loss of our sweet
Rebecca never leaves my mind?
The answer is, simply, a lot.
This time of trial has forced me to slow down, to reconnect, to reflect. It is during these quiet times that my eyes have been opened in new awakening to show me what is truly important in this life; and that I do, indeed, have many blessings to be thankful for.
I am thankful for my husband, John, who has shown me nothing [and everything] but love and shared pain. I cannot say we share understanding, since perhaps we may never know why God took Rebecca, and then his dad, only one week later. But we do share faith in the One who has brought us closer together, and who will see us through in time.
I am thankful for my children, who have suffered so much. How can they possibly understand, when we struggle so much ourselves? Nevertheless, they have collectively shown a faith and “will to get through” that defies their age. They have leaned on each other, cried together, and laughed together. Rebecca was the center of all of our lives – the one who brought us all together. Now they know how much they need and love their other siblings, too.
I am thankful for our families, whom I honestly didn’t think would have the means, time or care to make the five-hundred and thousand-mile journeys to Kingwood, and who have shown us unwavering love and compassion during this time of trial. They have seen me at my absolute worst, and still stayed close. They have helped in so many ways -- from taking care of the children and making arrangements to cleaning house – when I couldn’t possibly do anything on my own besides weep in agony, despair and guilt. They were right there, and continue to be there, during the times when no words need be spoken, and a tight hug shows and tells all that need be said.
I am thankful for our neighbors, colleagues and friends, including the ones I have never met, but am honored to call “friend.” They have renewed my faith in community and humanity. They were right there when the accident happened, helping me, guiding me, fighting off the media and prying eyes until John got back into town and could be by my side. They have provided meals for my family, when I had no desire to eat and had all but lost the motherly, nurturing instinct to feed my children. They have provided friendship, distraction, and transportation for my children; which in turn, has provided me the time and quiet peace needed for reflection. Most importantly, they have shared their own stories of loss, and have shown me that I am not alone in this grief -- they have gotten through the unimaginable pain of losing a child, and have made me believe that I will, too.
I am thankful for our church families; who have been there from the very beginning and have seen Rebecca transform from an introspective baby into a bright, beautiful, generous child full of life, love and God’s teachings. They were also there at the end, to grieve with us, to pray with us and to pay witness to the passing of her earthly life and the beginning of her journey into everlasting life.
I am thankful for everyone at Bright Beginnings Learning Center, who have known and loved Rebecca since she was still in the womb. They called her loving nicknames -- like “Princess Becca” and “Sparkles” -- and were instrumental in shaping her unique, captivating personality and God’s love and light within her. In her memory they have planted Becca’s garden, so her joyful spirit can live on in life anew; and so all who pass by can reflect, see and feel the beauty in the colors God has so perfectly chosen for each petal as she smiles down upon them, whispering to them to pick the prettiest one.
I am thankful to everyone who has lifted our family up in prayer. You have shown our family love and empathy in your own quiet time of reflection, in words spoken and thoughts unsaid, but deeply felt. You have outwardly shown your love for us by posting on
Rebecca’s memorial page, by sending cards and letters, and by posting on Facebook, forums and blogs. Your efforts have not gone unnoticed nor unfelt, though I am still too weak from the depths of despair to respond to them directly. It was only via these things that I truly understood how far reaching the impact of one little girl has been throughout the United States. The words and heartfelt sympathies you have posted are reread often, and have provided more comfort and peace than you will ever know.
I am thankful to all who work with John at Gardere, who have provided me time with my husband and who have provided friendship, support, countless meals and groceries under the most difficult of circumstances.
I am thankful for Dr. Raj, the chaplain, and the staff at Memorial Hermann, who did everything they could to save my baby, and who showed the utmost in respect and compassion in her passing.
I am thankful for the donee families; that my daughter’s joyful spirit may continue to live on in their own children.
I am thankful for the local firefighters, who had the courage and foresight to come forward and use Rebecca as the catalyst for change in
Houston’s 911 emergency response policy. The new protocol has already been adopted, and will benefit the millions of people in Houston and surrounding areas, who may one day find themselves in the throes of life and death.
I am thankful for my counselor, whose patience, compassion and understanding is helping me see the meaning of tragedy, when it sometimes seems impossible to go on.
You ALL have shown your love for our family by your very presence in our lives.
Finally, but certainly not least of all, I am thankful to God, the Almighty One, for allowing me this time of reflection; to see life anew. He has shown me unwavering love during not just this most difficult time, but throughout my whole life. I am grateful to Him for choosing ME to be Rebecca’s mother, and for the time I was allowed to love her and hold her here on Earth. I have seen Rebecca in the arms of Jesus, and she is HAPPY. I have seen her with Jesus hand in hand at the beach – her favorite place in this Earthly world. And, I have seen her dancing – her joyous smile illuminating Heaven even more than it already was. I am so thankful to God for allowing me to “see” her in this not-so-far-off place of unconditional love, wonder and joy. HE is so good.
Like King David in the throes of pain after losing his infant son, I know she will not come to me, but one day, I will go to her. And I can’t wait.
Psalm 100
A Song of Praise for the Lord’s Faithfulness to His People
A Psalm of Thanksgiving
Make a joyful noise unto the LORD, all ye lands.
Serve the LORD with gladness:
Come before His presence with singing.
Know ye that the LORD, He is God:
It is He that hath made us, and not we ourselves;
We are His people, and the sheep of his pasture.
Enter into His gates with thanksgiving,
And into His courts with praise:
Be thankful unto Him, and bless His name.
For the LORD is good;
His mercy is everlasting;
And His truth endureth to all generations.
God doesn’t give you the people you want,
He gives you the people you NEED.
To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you
and to make you the person you were meant to be.
(Author Unknown)
Mere words alone cannot truly express my gratitude and appreciation for all that you’ve done; for all that HE’s provided. I hope this letter conveys the love and blessings I wish to share with all of you this Thanksgiving. Keep close to the ones you hold dear, and may you be surrounded with love.
Happy Thanksgiving!
Much love from all of us,
Olinda
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